HELLO:D
went for dinner at the Orchard Seafood resturant.OMGODD.the food is D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-D-S.
simply amazing.those who got the message about the place,GO FOR IT.you'll die of amazing-ness:D
haha.
anyways,there's this story that i want to dedicate to Charmaine Chan.
it's adapted from CHICKEN SOUP FOR THE TEENAGE SOUL.it's good for charmanie.trust me
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"So does this mean that you want to break up?"I asked softly, hoping my question would go unanswered. That is how it all began, or i guess, ended.The months the two of us shared were some of the happiest,hardest and most educational months I ever experienced.It seemed impossible that this was the last conversation we would ever have as Ben and Lia,the couple.
I had ignored the fact that the majority of high-school relationships do not last.I guess,in the bcak of my mind,I always thought that Ben was the only boy that i would ever have feelings for,that he was the only boy that would ever understand me.I never took into the account that the last month was one of the hardest times i had ever gone through.It just stopped being fun.It stopped being about us and started to be about everything that surrounded him and me.
The next day at school i tried looking great to make him see what he had given up.I even tried talking to him like my heart wasn't aching; like i was better off and even happier.But inside i looked at him and could only see all the love and time i had given to him and all the hurt i had received.I walked around school in complete daze and cried to myself to sleep every night.He was the only thing that i ever thought about,dreamt about and talked about.i drove my friends crazy by constantly analyzing the situation.HOW COULD IT HAVE ENDED?!i found my other half when i was with him.I felt like something had been thorn from me,like i was no longer whole.
One night,I couldn't stand it.I gave up and called him.I didn't last 5 minutes before i broke down and started to cry.I told him that i had forgotten to be myself,and that i needed him.I didn't know how to be Lia without Ben.We been through so much together that i could not imagine getting through this on my own.He told me that he would always care for me,but it had become
impossible to love me.
For weeks,I couldn't see him with other girls without thinking that they were dating.I threw myself at different guys.
I don't know at which point things started to change.I began spending time with my friends.I joined clubs and made after school plans.I was doing all i could to stay busy.
Slowly,i began to have fun by myself,without Ben.Beyond that, i discovered things i liked doing,ways i could be of help.I lent a sympathetic ear to others who were hurting.
I began to smile and,finally laugh again.Whole days would pass without a thought of Ben.I would see him at school and wave.I was not ready to be friends with him.I was still healing.But i know i didn't cover a big wound with a band-aid and forget about it.I let the wound heal by itself and felt enough pain to know that i truly cared for him.
In my rebound stage,I pursued a lot of guys.Once i healed,they perused me.The wonderful thing that happened was that i learned to be a whole new person.
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